Covered
My husband left on a Tuesday in October, when Jane was five years old. There was no screaming. No confession extracted through tears.
No plates broken, no doors slammed, none of the furniture of catastrophe I had seen in other people’s endings. Just a quiet talk at the kitchen table after Jane had gone to bed, his voice low and careful, like a man who had been rehearsing. “I don’t think I can do this anymore,” he said.
I looked at him across the table. The lamp was on. The house was quiet.
Jane’s drawings were still on the refrigerator with the little magnets shaped like vegetables. Everything looked exactly the way it always looked, except the man sitting across from me had the face of someone who had already left. “Do what?” I asked.
He looked down at his hands. “This life.”
In the morning there was a suitcase by the front door. Jane came into the kitchen in her pajamas, still half-asleep, rubbing her eyes, and stopped when she saw him dressed like he was going somewhere.
“Why is Daddy dressed like that?”
He crouched down and kissed the top of her head. “I have to go for a while.”
She nodded the way small children nod when they are trying to understand something too large for their current equipment. Then she looked at me over his shoulder with her serious five-year-old eyes, and I kept my face the way I had decided it needed to stay.
Then he left. For months afterward, I told myself it was temporary. He would come back.
He would reconsider. The suitcase would reappear in the hallway, this time being unpacked rather than packed, and we would find some version of before again. I told myself this through the first month and the second, when the child support was late and then short and then not consistent enough to build around.
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