fter giving birth, my husband made it clear my body had become a problem he expected me to fix. I lost the weight—but by then, I’d learned something about him he never saw coming.
Four months after my daughter was born, I measured time in feedings instead of hours.
I woke two or three times a night, sometimes more, and by morning I usually couldn’t remember whether I had brushed my teeth.
Coffee went cold on the kitchen counter. Breakfast was whatever I could eat with one hand while holding a baby with the other.
I measured time in feedings.
Some days, taking a shower felt like an accomplishment worth celebrating.
Ryan slept through almost all of it.
If I nudged him awake, he would mumble, “You’re already up,” as though that settled the matter. On weekends, he occasionally took the baby so I could rest, but the moment she started crying, he appeared in the doorway.
“She wants you.”
“You’re already up.”
“She’s been with me all day.”
“Yeah, but you know how to calm her down.”
So I would take her again.
One evening, we were getting ready for Ryan’s company dinner. I had spent twenty minutes trying to make myself presentable before pulling an old black dress from the closet.
I sucked in my stomach.
It had always fit perfectly.
That night, the zipper stopped halfway up my back.
I sucked in my stomach and tried again.
Nothing.
Ryan was standing behind me, adjusting his cuff links. I caught his reflection in the mirror.
“Attraction matters.”
“You know I love you,” he said, “but attraction matters.”
I slowly turned around.
“What?”
He shrugged.
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