When his ex went into labor, I finally understood the truth about us.

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When he finally came home later that day, he looked worn down in a way I’d never seen. “She was alone,” he said quietly. “I couldn’t just ignore that.”

I didn’t argue.

But I also couldn’t shake the truth that settled in my chest: compassion didn’t require disappearing. It didn’t require leaving me in the dark.

Since that day, something between us feels cracked. Not because I’m jealous — I know nothing romantic happened — but because I suddenly realized I don’t want to live feeling like a backup plan, like someone whose feelings can be brushed aside in the name of being “a good person.”

I don’t know if that means divorce… or if I’m being selfish for feeling this way at all.

I need clarity. I need advice.