The night before my son’s first day of school, I ironed his uniform.
I want to start there because the detail is small and specific and it is the kind of detail you remember about ordinary life, the ordinary life that was happening around the edges of everything I did not yet know.
The uniform was navy blue and white, the specific combination of Millbrook Elementary, and I had bought it three weeks earlier during the school supply shopping trip that Ethan had treated as an adventure, filling the cart with the pencil box and the folders and the backpack with the dinosaurs on the pockets with the focused enthusiasm of a five-year-old who had been told that school was the best thing.
I had ironed the shirt and the little pants and hung them on the back of his bedroom door so he would see them first thing in the morning.
I had been looking forward to this day for months.
Not the specific performance of it, not the photographs for social media or the milestone-marking that some parents organize around these moments. The genuine quiet excitement of watching a child step into the next phase of himself, of watching Ethan go from the boy who was always home to the boy who would have a classroom and a teacher and other children and the beginning of a world that was his own.
I wanted it to be good.
I had done everything I could think of to make it good.
Kayla had been working against me for three weeks.
My mother-in-law’s name is Kayla Carter, and I have known her for eight years, and in those eight years our relationship had settled into something that functioned adequately if not warmly, the specific equilibrium of two women who love the same people and who have learned, through the gradual negotiation of proximity, where the lines are.
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