The thing about raising three kids is that you stop noticing when your husband starts to disappear.
You notice everything else. You notice the cough that means somebody’s getting strep. You notice the shoes that suddenly pinch. You notice the face your ten-year-old makes when a girl named Brooklyn stops sitting with her at lunch. You notice the empty milk jug somebody put back in the fridge.
But the man sleeping next to you? You think you know him. You stop looking.
I’d been married to Paul for twelve years. We had three kids. Ella was ten, serious and bookish, with my dark hair and her father’s long legs. Benny was seven, all elbows and questions, the kind of kid who asks why the sky is blue and then asks why blue is called blue. And Rosie was four, the baby, loud and sticky and fearless, who still climbed into our bed at three in the morning and slept sideways with her feet in my ribs.
Paul worked in insurance. Commercial claims. He drove forty minutes each way to an office building in Columbus, sat at a desk for nine hours, and drove home. He’d done it for fourteen years. He said he didn’t mind. He said it paid the mortgage.
He was a good father. Patient. Funny. He did all the voices when he read bedtime stories. He built a treehouse in the backyard that leaned a little to the left. He let Rosie paint his toenails purple. He could fix almost anything with duct tape and a butter knife.
He was a quiet man. That’s what people always said about him. Paul’s so quiet. Paul’s so steady.
I loved that about him. I’d grown up in a loud house. My mother yelled. My father yelled louder. And then, when I was six, my father stopped yelling, because he wasn’t there anymore. He packed a duffel bag on a Tuesday morning and drove to Florida with a woman from his bowling league, and I never saw him again.
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